As Long As I’m Breathing

My life feels like a blur at the moment. I’m not depressed. I’m just at that stage in life where having no real direction or certainty about what I should be doing is scary as fuxk. 

I just know that I want a job. I am not fussy what it is because right now, my main motivation is money. I haven’t found my “calling”.

But as long as I’m still breathing, then I am still here.

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SPECIAL: 1 Year Anniversary Update

Technically, I think I’m coming up to my 1 year anniversary on Emmie Unsigned!! I started blogging in the beginning of June last year and I feel like the year has flown by (probably because I was depressed and on medication for half of it!).

I want to keep blogging at least 3 days a week and stay relevant whilst remaining true to myself. Views matter but writing for release is just as important to me so I want to try and focus less on stats although I will stick with the Weekly Round-Up.

For those who have been following along since I started this blog, I just want to say thank you! I’m no income-earning, sponsored, every day posting blogger but I try to be genuine and organic.

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Weekly Round-Up: 30.04.17

General stats of the week (Monday – Sunday):

Good days: 0, Okay days: 7, Bad days: 0. It’s been hella cold this week and I don’t do cold. But nothing massively bad has happened either. I’m in a better place with Mr Me this week.
Books read: Currently reading “Midnight Exposure” by Melinda Leigh
Time’s I’ve Worked Out: 0. I am determined to make this number at least 3/4 next week
Time’s I’ve Chose Social Media over Housework: At least once every day, Monday to Friday. Maybe even more.
Times I’ve had to listen to Sleep With Me podcast: Twice. It’s my go-to when I can’t sleep.
Days I’ve counted down to the Mini’s bedtime then wondered why because they don’t go to sleep: Every damn day. In the holidays, they were fast asleep within minutes; as soon as school starts, no-one wants to be asleep when it’s bedtime. Makes no sense.
Jobs I’ve heard back from: 0. It’s okay. I’m not going to stress about it. Everything in good time. One day at a time…

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27 Things Every 20 Something Year Old Should Know How To Do

In your early teens, you can’t imagine being 25 let alone what your life might be like realistically but you definitely aren’t thinking about the skills you’re going to need as an official “adult”.

Adulting is hard.

Every adult is looking for another adult who is adulting better than they are to save their ass in times of need… until they become that adultier adult that a less adulting adult is looking for!

So, what kind of things should we know to be even semi-successful in this unexpected adulting life we find ourselves in before we even realised? Here’s a list of the top skills I think all 20 something-year-olds need to know!

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Returning To Work After A MH Career Gap

Mental health has plagued me for the last 2 and a half years starting when Master 2 was born.

My escape from PND happened to be returning to work in the form of a Level 3 apprenticeship.

It was all going so well until after managing to shake off PND, my existing anxiety developed and along with the medication for that came depression.
No sooner had I finished my apprenticeship before I was getting ready to resign. I wasn’t motivated; I wasn’t happy; I didn’t even want to get up in the morning. At the time, I thought the problem was my job when in reality, the problem was my mind. Exactly a year after I started my job, I resigned.

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Weekly Round-Up: 23.04.17

General stats of the week (Monday – Sunday):

Good days: 2, Okay days: 2, Bad days: 3.
Books read: Captured by Our Addiction (Book 5 in the Captured series) by Karen Frances
Time’s I’ve Worked Out: 0. No T25 and no gym. I was bleeding like a dog. Leave me.
Time’s I’ve Eaten Terribly: Too many to count and I don’t have Easter as an excuse anymore.
Times I’ve had to listen to Sleep With Me podcast: 3 I think. My anxiety and insomnia was pretty bad this week. I love that this podcast exists!
Days I’ve wondered if I’d be better off without Mr Me: 3. Possibly 4. These accounted for my bad days.
Jobs I’ve applied for: 20 maybe. Having gone from pure anxiety thinking about applying to being able to apply for multiple jobs is a massive thing for me, even if I get 0 responses!

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