TW//Self-Harm: When Needing Control Gets Out of Control

Self harm is not the way forward.

It never is. It doesn’t help or change the problem. It is just my way – a wrong way – of dealing with a situation I can’t control. If you google “Help With Self Harm” there are so many websites, support networks and options available to help anyone find a better way to deal with their problems and to learn how to mentally break the habit. I am trying again. I will get past this like I did the last time. This doesn’t have to be a part of my forever story.

This time I realise that my urge to control is managed by something that happens when I lose control – I lose control of my strength, of being able to say no, of my progress, of my anxiety.

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Returning To Work After A MH Career Gap

Mental health has plagued me for the last 2 and a half years starting when Master 2 was born.

My escape from PND happened to be returning to work in the form of a Level 3 apprenticeship.

It was all going so well until after managing to shake off PND, my existing anxiety developed and along with the medication for that came depression.
No sooner had I finished my apprenticeship before I was getting ready to resign. I wasn’t motivated; I wasn’t happy; I didn’t even want to get up in the morning. At the time, I thought the problem was my job when in reality, the problem was my mind. Exactly a year after I started my job, I resigned.

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17 Things People Need You To Know About Mental Health

Last year, on some of my worst days, people would ask me if I was okay or ask how I was. On those days, I wanted to cry or scream or be asked something that either didn’t make me think about how I felt or genuinely had room for my honest answer!

So, I asked as many people as were willing to answer, what they would honestly answer to one question of their choice during some of their worst mental health moments. These are their answers.

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Why I Feel Unpretty (And 6 Quotes To Help You Remember You’re Beautiful!) ║ Mind, Body & Soul

My waist isn’t small and my bum isn’t toned. My thighs are too fatty and my breasts too saggy. My freckles are awesome but my confidence doesn’t exist. Do you see the problem?

I know I have to keep trying. Keep trying to get to a place where I am happy and comfortable with my body. A place where I am confident in my physical attraction. A place where I remember how beautiful my mind can be too.

A place where I am happy to just be me, as I am.

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The Basic Spoon List (How I Help People To Understand)

After reading The Spoon Theory, I decided that it was probably the best way to get Mr Me to understand, as well as anyone else around me who maybe would want an insight so I decided to create The Basic Spoon List. For 2days, I am going to give Mr Me 12 spoons (possibly 15 if I feel like being genereous) and The Basic Spoon List (see below). And I mean basic because I don’t think it would be fair to give him the list that is actually my life – it’s hard enough for me as it is!

So here’s the list for him and the amount of spoons each action uses with an explanation for most – I hope by seeing my days broken down into such complexity and how much effort each thing takes will help him to understand why I am always tired and rarely want to do a damn thing

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