Day 03 – Your views on drugs and alcohol
Drugs and alcohol. Cocaine and vodka. MDMA and Hennessy. Heroine and lager. What’s your poison of choice?
Personally, I smoked “weed” for about a year when I was 15. This chemically sprayed skunk leaves me highly paranoid and anxious with heart palpitations and hallucinations of signs of meningitis. Needless to say, it isn’t for me. If that’s what weed can do to me, you can be sure I’ve always been terrified to try anything harder. Lord knows what a bad trip could do for my mental health!
Alcohol. I could easily become an alcoholic if I had nothing to live for. Prior to having any Mini Me’s I went through a stint of being able to drink a lot of alcohol. And I’m not exaggerating. I’m talking 75cl bottles of courvoisier on a Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday. I don’t know how I could afford it or how my liver survived it. I wasn’t drinking alone and it seemed fun at the time… this is when my sexual encounters grew to a number it never should have. Whatever. After Mini Me 1 was born, I realised having a hangover when you have a baby is literally torture and my body can’t handle it how it used to. Now I’m on medication I just don’t drink.
I don’t have a problem with anyone who drinks. I do have a problem being around any of my family when they’re drunk. I also don’t like people who drink too much and can’t handle themselves.
Because of drugs, I was nearly sexually abused as a teenager in my family home by a man who thought my mum was too high to notice. The truth is, she would have been. Luckily, I was too scared of what could happen to me sexually to be too scared of what would happen if I didn’t do what he told me to do. Because of alcohol and drugs, my mums ex-partner thought he could get away with creeping into my bedroom on two occasions to try and touch me and trying to force his way into the bathroom on one occasion to “look” at me. Again, I managed to get out of these situations unharmed. But things like this are definitely enough to put me off of drink and drugs for life.