Day 03 – Party & Bullish*t

Day 03 – Your views on drugs and alcohol

Drugs and alcohol. Cocaine and vodka. MDMA and Hennessy. Heroine and lager. What’s your poison of choice?

Personally, I smoked “weed” for about a year when I was 15. This chemically sprayed skunk leaves me highly paranoid and anxious with heart palpitations and hallucinations of signs of meningitis. Needless to say, it isn’t for me. If that’s what weed can do to me, you can be sure I’ve always been terrified to try anything harder. Lord knows what a bad trip could do for my mental health!

Alcohol. I could easily become an alcoholic if I had nothing to live for. Prior to having any Mini Me’s I went through a stint of being able to drink a lot of alcohol. And I’m not exaggerating. I’m talking 75cl bottles of courvoisier on a Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday. I don’t know how I could afford it or how my liver survived it. I wasn’t drinking alone and it seemed fun at the time… this is when my sexual encounters grew to a number it never should have. Whatever. After Mini Me 1 was born, I realised having a hangover when you have a baby is literally torture and my body can’t handle it how it used to. Now I’m on medication I just don’t drink. 37241_107889529261389_5985792_n

I don’t have a problem with anyone who drinks. I do have a problem being around any of my family when they’re drunk. I also don’t like people who drink too much and can’t handle themselves.

Because of drugs, I was nearly sexually abused as a teenager in my family home by a man who thought my mum was too high to notice. The truth is, she would have been. Luckily, I was too scared of what could happen to me sexually to be too scared of what would happen if I didn’t do what he told me to do. Because of alcohol and drugs, my mums ex-partner thought he could get away with creeping into my bedroom on two occasions to try and touch me and trying to force his way into the bathroom on one occasion to “look” at me. Again, I managed to get out of these situations unharmed. But things like this are definitely enough to put me off of drink and drugs for life.


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  1. I have never ever got high on weed or ever had a sip of alcohol! Tempted to do it sometimes but for some reason I pull back! Good on you for leaving the intoxication behind and being head strong!

  2. Kara Guppy says:

    I used to smoke (normal cigarettes) and now hate the smell of them. My poison of choice is wine, however I am asleep after 2 glasses lol

  3. I used to smoke weed in my teens and drink alot too, now i do neither, I’ve seen how lives have been affected by alcohol and drug abuse ive also seen someone recover from below their lowest and now have everything they never thought they would have, its so inspiring, thank you for sharing your experience. Marie 🙂

  4. Evelina says:

    It’s so great to read that you found the strength to turn your life around. Well done!

  5. I use to like a glass or 2 of wine but I get a hangover on half a bottle now days so I try not to drink. I do like my baileys and Jack Daniels at Christmas though..

  6. I drink rarely, I do like my Baileys but I hardly do these days. Never tried anything strong except the odd cigarette when I was at uni. I quickly realised it wasn’t for me. Sorry to read about your Mum’s ex partner trying to assault you. That must have been horrible to experience.

  7. I used to smoke weed many moons ago, but soon got bored as I grew out of it. I don’t drink much nowadays because the diet i’m on doesn’t do booze! Hehe, but I do like just a couple on a weekend to chill out to.
    I’m sorry to hear about your childhood, but well done for finding the strength to not let it beat you and turn your life around x

  8. Cathy Glynn says:

    I use to work with the Drug and Alcohol team and have seen the devastation in can have on young lives. I am so glad that you managed to turn your life around xx

  9. How brave that you’ve tackled this issue head on. I’m sorry to hear you went through a crappy time, but at least you now have the sense to know the drugs do you more harm than good….well done on turning things round. You should be proud of that.

  10. Dean B says:

    Admittedly I’ve tried smoking weed when I was at University but only tried it once and of course, used to also drink a lot when I was younger. But now I can barely drink more than 2 before my husband has to haul me off to bed!

    1. Unsigned, Emmie says:

      This made me LOL! I’m very sometimeish when I drink – I can either drink loads of double Brandy’s and still manage to get home and not be sick or I can drink two and need my bed instantly!

      Emmie xo

  11. ljdove23 says:

    I smoked weed in my teens, so much that I have been put off for life, and I drank a lot, especially in my late twenties when I went through a pretty messy divorce. These days I drink maybe twice a year at most, I don’t smoke, I would run a mile if offered any drugs and I try to surround myself by like minded people. I’m sorry for what you went through. xx

    1. Unsigned, Emmie says:

      Thank you for commenting!

      I think even if I could drink I would probably only drink once or twice a year to be honest.

      Other than trying weed, I’ve never smoked at all and never will.

      Everything happens for a reason apparently.


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