A Day in the Life of A Stay At Home MH Mama

Today, I am the struggling, tired, shouting, oven fooding, shop going only, don’t want to do a thing parent.

And that’s okay. Because there’s always tomorrow. And my children love me. They can’t read my mind and their love is much greater than any other emotion they know (most of the time). They forgive easily. And they will always remember the hugs and tickles and special film with duvet days.

This isn’t every day. This is just today.

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17 Things People Need You To Know About Mental Health

Last year, on some of my worst days, people would ask me if I was okay or ask how I was. On those days, I wanted to cry or scream or be asked something that either didn’t make me think about how I felt or genuinely had room for my honest answer!

So, I asked as many people as were willing to answer, what they would honestly answer to one question of their choice during some of their worst mental health moments. These are their answers.

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Christmas: A Sign of Times

Do you wish it could be Christmas everyday? Have you been rocking around the Christmas tree since firework night finished? Have you been clothes shopping for all the Christmas and New Year parties you’ll be attending?

If like me, the above sounds nothing like you, then join the club of the officially too old for lots of presents; Christmas is now for my kids and I couldn’t stay awake to attend a party even if I could find a childminder.

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The Basic Spoon List (How I Help People To Understand)

After reading The Spoon Theory, I decided that it was probably the best way to get Mr Me to understand, as well as anyone else around me who maybe would want an insight so I decided to create The Basic Spoon List. For 2days, I am going to give Mr Me 12 spoons (possibly 15 if I feel like being genereous) and The Basic Spoon List (see below). And I mean basic because I don’t think it would be fair to give him the list that is actually my life – it’s hard enough for me as it is!

So here’s the list for him and the amount of spoons each action uses with an explanation for most – I hope by seeing my days broken down into such complexity and how much effort each thing takes will help him to understand why I am always tired and rarely want to do a damn thing

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When All I Want To Do Is Sleep…

If you’ve ever been depressed or suffered with anxiety (and I don’t know what else) then you may have experienced chronic fatigue. It is not a joke nor is it fun. You can sleep for hours and wake up tired or you can get a minimal amount of sleep and be tired but the bottom line is – you’re tired constantly.

Every day is a battle with yourself to get shit done, even the most basic shit, like get dressed or do your hair or feed the kids or don’t go back to sleep… no task is easy because it all requires so much effort and willpower that just living is hard work.

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Why I Still Need Medication To Be Me

Have you ever done something that affects your whole life but you don’t even realise until it’s all gone so badly wrong that it’s almost ruined everything?
I thought everything was fine because I was living in a bubble of my own creation called depression and anxiety.
Fast forward to 1st August with my life falling apart around me, my relationship near its end and me lost in a bubble of disinterest and tiredness and confusion. Mr Me has no idea I have been off my meds and feeling completely lost for a good few weeks at least.

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An Insight into an Anxious Mind

I still don’t know a lot about anxiety, why it happens or where it comes from. I am researching and trying to learn and understand more about this disorder that plagues my mind. Therapy has taught me that a lot of my problems stem from a dysfunctional childhood, not that it makes it any easier to live with it or deal with it.
Because in my mind I’ve been diagnosed with multiple life-threatening illnesses, my house has burnt down with my family inside, my children have died from SIDs, Mr.Me has been fatally wounded on his way home and I’ve died hundreds of different deaths.

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Want To Improve Your Life? So Do I

I’ve learnt that my childhood had a much bigger impact on me than I ever realised and I think I had hoped to avoid. As “normal” as people think I am, deep down, I clearly have issues. I have generalised anxiety disorder that manifests in so many ways from catastrophising about death and illnesses to panic attacks when I feel under pressure at work and being unable to make basic decisions at home like pizza or chinese (and the even more fucked up bit about it is that this lack of control stems from a need to control everything… makes sense right?!).

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10 Tips To Cope With Anxiety

Mental health, schmental health. For years, mental health problems were treated like folklore or something made up to scare children and adults.

Whatever it is that you’re dealing with, I want you to know you’re not alone, you’re not crazy and you can survive – there is a light at the end of the tunnel, it’s just a longer tunnel for some! In the meantime, while you travel through your personal tunnel looking for that light, here are 10 ways to help you cope in the darkness.

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