A Day in the Life of A Stay At Home MH Mama

Today, I am the struggling, tired, shouting, oven fooding, shop going only, don’t want to do a thing parent.

And that’s okay. Because there’s always tomorrow. And my children love me. They can’t read my mind and their love is much greater than any other emotion they know (most of the time). They forgive easily. And they will always remember the hugs and tickles and special film with duvet days.

This isn’t every day. This is just today.

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You’re No Good For Me…

I needed to say this. I needed to say this because I was thinking it and it was getting to me and I couldn’t do anything about it because I don’t want to argue with people when I know I could be in the wrong. I don’t want to argue with people when I know I am already short-tempered and emotional. I don’t want to argue with people when I know I would be wasting my time. So I wrote it all down instead.

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Day 01 – Mr & Mrs Me

I was rushed, I was bullied, I was sinking, I was pretending, I was crying and trying not to cry, I was running away and I was depressed. But he was there through it all. And if there is anything on my blog he ever happens to read one day, I hope it will be this post alone so that he can know how much he has been to me since the beginning.

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The Ultimate Relationship Revelation

We are so far from perfect but it’s real life and it’s us.

His socks still smell bad enough to make me look for a shitty nappy that’s been left somewhere and he still tries to talk to me while I’m trying to take a dump. I’m still the person who talks the most nonsense when I’m fighting sleep and says some of the most obvious things known to mankind when they don’t need to be said at all.

It’s not about being perfect – it’s about finding someone who loves your imperfect and finding the perfect balance!

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Want To Improve Your Life? So Do I

I’ve learnt that my childhood had a much bigger impact on me than I ever realised and I think I had hoped to avoid. As “normal” as people think I am, deep down, I clearly have issues. I have generalised anxiety disorder that manifests in so many ways from catastrophising about death and illnesses to panic attacks when I feel under pressure at work and being unable to make basic decisions at home like pizza or chinese (and the even more fucked up bit about it is that this lack of control stems from a need to control everything… makes sense right?!).

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Life Planning 101

You might have realised I was in some shock yesterday and pretty pissed over the whole Brexit result. I’m over it now. The only way forward is to plan and plan some more so that’s what I’ve been doing!
To plan for the next 5 or 10 or however many years isn’t easy! I don’t know why I thought it would be but I guess we don’t consider all the aspects that make a life and have to be considered when planning.

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